1521

Ever feels like what you have been doing has gone to drain? all the effort and tiring practises are just waste and thrash? Not completely but yeah. point is, if one cant control how to implement what have been drilled into and upon countless times of trials and errors, then that is totally just a waste.

focus and refocus: when nervousness sweeps you away into a sea of blurriness and chaos. cant focus cant breathe. cant even think right. every movement serves a bad turnaround. what to do? Shall i just let it all slip away and surrender? I declare; defeat. But not yet...

Breathe in and breathe out....

wake up and stand up...

play and replay...(and pause for a moment...) play again...

memories flashes back and again...like that music of bOOs and OOhs in my ears...GoGGley eyes; watching being spectators; in silence they say words and sighs and frustrations...

yet again, the opponents lOOking down upOn you, yet to declare victory...

and we say: NEVER!! not yet sucka, we are not going to give up just like that. Come, come challenge us with all your highly skills...with armours in our arms, we shall defend this territory. Attack us with your hawks and we'll spit it back right into your face! (ouch!)

As 15 or 21 has been reached, then only silence and the egoisms of the unspoken heroes are known. Only the winner walks away with pride and dignity whilst the loser can only accept defeat. Lessons learned. better luck next time.

Question: 15 or 21.... What am i? Hahah....