Monday, May 28, 2007

Must listen!!



Little Wonders
Rob Thomas

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don’t you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don’t mind
if it’s me you need to turn to
we’ll get by,
it’s the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Panic at the discotheque

just got back from badminton, i switched on my PC and a baloon pops out, found out that theres a new 'hardware'...sigh, its another trouble again that the PC couldn't recognise the LAN Ethernet card...how the heck was that possible when i looked at the back i can still see the power on?

soon enough i was busy trying to look for the driver, and couldnt even find where i put it... sigh...

after installing a driver,luckily the PC has several drivers that can be selected and installed, im connected again and thus, this post.

seriously, i need a new PC and a Laptop.

and to a more serious note to that, i need a job!!


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just remembered, while i was on my way to menglait for badminton, my car (old mazda 323) couldnt start when i hit the brake while i was at Beribi's simpang empat. i was on the right lane lagi tu, and my car couldnt start!! 2-3 tries, i nearly got panicked, in my head 'oh sh!et'......

but luckily, when i hit the fuel and together with the ignition, baik jua mau!!.....*Alhamdulillah*

i really don't know what's wrong lah...

i just got it serviced yesterday and nothing wrong happened..even the battery is still ok...

and there you go, you know what else i also need.... heHe....

Friday, May 25, 2007

Cicakman minum susu

Huhuhu hahaha....

Ganaz bah cicaK ah....u know ia buleh masuk ke dalam susu manis>?? padahal lubang susu manis atu damit jua saja... .. my dad yg terkajut meliat tadi pagi... ia fikir giok bah, skali nya cicak, man!..haHah...get it? :D

Monday, May 21, 2007

My 1st Seiko?

it's been a while i haven't been updating the blog....

entah boring sgt lah kan buat...

hmm... just fyi, i bought a watch last weeek... *yay* and its something that deserves a mention coz normally pple dont buy a watch today, the reason being they just use their handphone's clock to help tell the time... i used to think this way too...u know, why need a watch when a handphone is everything nowadays...

but having a watch also means that ure making a fashion statement..something dat accesorise what u wear.....just like a bracelet....

its oNly since the relief thingy started that, and quite frankly my old watch got some sorta problem, ive been thinking of buying another watch. Now, buying a watch has been a while too..when was the last time ah... *cant even recall*

anyways, its been since the relief that looking at a watch to tell the time while in class is the only thing that u need to do and not by taking ur handphone out from the pocket...coz its like a bad example lah to the students hehe...

funny how i struggle to find the perfect watch for me .....luckily Sally was with me while for the look out ..her choice was perfect! huhu......its a seiko 5 series man......decent lookin watch altho quite expensive but its all worth it despite how much it cost me and considering how money is so in need right now....

its also automatic, meaning it doesnt require any battery but just movements of ur wrist...i know this may sound like impossible but they actually have this technology way before battery-operated watches were introduced....so its quite reliable...amazing dat it'll run for 2 and a half days if u let it idle....

i hope my watch will last for another5-10years....hahaha.....unless i changed to something new......and somehow watch collecting pops out my mind now......

pictures? u want to see my watch? jgntah eh....hehe...you'll get to see it when u see me ...

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R el i e f l i f e

i have been invigilating the form one kids back in school......they were alright lah....

ada yg kesian, i was invigilating English 1 form 1, they couldnt even understand the instruction written on the paper and i had to explain and reinterpret and translate it to malay....

and annoying when students go the toilet for so long....its always the boys yg suka ke jamban ane.....lama wah.. the toilet wasnt dat far...and they would take like 5-8mins in the toilet.....bhapa ya? bth banar ya mengancit..haHaha.....mun ya ber** fhm jua ku...

and then there would be boys who act as if there's no teacher in front of them.....main tembak2 ya masa exam ah....sama kawannya....wth man.....annoying giller....

teaching life...haiyooo......baru relief.....

m expecting more workloads by next week.....so stay with me....huhu....*stress ne*

o yeah, just abt today, there are a new batch of teachers from UBD ...not really new lah but on observation.....hm, i think majority of them are observationist (hahah) and 1-2 perhaps doing TP...

Salam

*having the bug of looking at my watch every now and then....i got the virus..the seiko virus...oh...my my....*




Monday, May 14, 2007

Chinese products are now everywhere!

China is one of the fastest growing economy in the world today. surpassing japan and the US. considering their enormous economic development in a short time span. do i sound serious? hahah. its a fact. its a fact that they are also known for selling fake, counterfeited, copied goods.

just about yesterday i bought myself a new racquet, Yonex Armortec 700. Very light and very good on my hands. liking the feel of it, i bought it for a mere $40. shocked with the price and with that feel of a racquet. (an original racquet would normally cost around $150-$250)

back home, i visited yonex's site to make sure that what i bought is not outdated, and indeed i was right. hahah. infact its widely used by top performance players. fuuh. although its a fake, but its a good fake i reckon. hahah.

ive read in forums that in china, they dont mention the word 'fakes' when doing business, instead they use the term grade AA, grade A, grade B etc. i believe we've heard of this too before, especially with women's handbags, where the grade A quality being made from korea, whilst the not so good fake is made from taiwan/china.

now, shopping anywhere in brunei is becoming hard now, with the influx of the chinese-made products. and its not just chinese-made but some other countries as well. they are copy-cats : copying exactly like the original and sell them at cheaper price or sometimes, being sold at quite an expensive ridiculous prices. the top issue regarding these products is definitely quality.

i went to a superstore around my place and there are abundance of chinese goods! it seems like its gonna close, after what, 2 -3 years of business? sad lah...maybe its the new branch of huaho (tanjong bunut) dat made this kind of superstore suffer...... 'battle of the big fish vs small fish'...

oh yea, and i also saw another 'copy' of my racquet there, being sold at 60 ish....without string lagi tu, so, m glad that i bought it at a cheaper price ;)

So my question is: do we have choice of not buying fakes here in brunei?? do we prefer originals and expensive goods? do we have that purchasing power? or we rather stick to the way things are done here: buy fakes at cheaper and affordable prices.

The way i see things are going here, i believe an average shopper here would prefer to be of the latter type. I guess we have no choice kan. Do we?

Imagine this: pirated cds. we know there are originals otherwise it wont be copied. but do we have the originals here being sold as quick as how the pirated versions hit the shelves? i doubt so. and in most cases, the originals never arrived. frustrated, one would rather go for the pirated copy, besides its cheaper and quality pun not bad.

its like a dilemma lah now. buying pirated cds are considered to be morally wrong, but what if we dont have a choice? what, do we have to go to singapore to buy just a cd? not everyone can do that. besides, its even more expensive to go there: tickets, accommodation, transport, makan....

musically, the internet is heaven. huhuhu. free downloads yo....its been a while i havent bought a cd from komunis. ( yes, the internet is another choice we have: for free, though we have to pay for espeed cost)

aaah.......imitations, duplications, counterfeits, we live with them everywhere here.....everywhere we go.....its just coming more and more.....

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Anniversary: May

Happy Anniversary to Sally my love..Happy anniversary to US..I love you forever more :)

Music to my ears

Glad in school was getting better , despite after being bombarded with the complaints by the unhappy me. remember i had trouble with the bookkeeping part?My HOD gave a solution that i couldnt think of and it is by changing or modifying, rather, the syllabus of the subject concerned.

Reshuffling the subject/syllabus of the form 2 and form 3, so that the bookkeeping part would only be done in form 3, makes me in a 'safe' position not to tackle that part. i was happy but sad at the same time, despite being able to teach the subject but with a major weakness in that part. at least, i was being honest that i couldnt teach it rather than 'yes-yes, sure-sure, nod-nod, faham-faham' situation, padahal satu haprak pun tara tau.nahmean. heh.

ok, now the school is thinking like as if i am a new teacher(well they have been thinking dat way since day 1) no, not relief, but a daily paid teacher. are there chances that relief teachers gonna be taken and absorbed to the school? that's what lingering in our ears...

now talking about lingering in our ears, i believe most of you have read the opinion section of the bulletin weekend about our situation:


Why don't we employ our jobless teachers?

There are unanswered questions that linger in our heads.

How much longer do we have to wait?

Please tell us why relief teachers are sought when there are hundreds of qualified teachers out there jobless and working part time.

We have wasted time waiting and we are frustrated that no action has been taken to curb this situation.

We would like to know if there are any problems recruiting new teachers. We pray to Allah for this misery to come to an end and hope that we are not being neglected.

- HL

Huhu...finally one of our voices has made it known to the relevant authorities out there. Now im not gonna question about the opinion coz its almost entirely agreeable..right, hahah....and what i wanna know is who is HL ? please, for those who know, do PM me alright..heHe......gotta give a pat at the back to HL for being loud enough to be heard.

Silly us, all we do now is to wait for the reply.....hahah...come wednesday/saturday....awu ane jua dorang lambat reply antah....

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Regarding the title post, music to my ears, I've been downloading some music of Indon bands that i am a fan (fan?) of...namely Samsons and Peterpan.....they've got some new songs comin out already; samsons with the upcoming album and not so sure abt Peterpan..but yea, the new music are further more maturing to hear than the previous catchy ones that we used to hear of them...

its rather hard, if i were to think abt it, what makes a music to my ears...i keep on wondering why my taste in music seem to change or maybe static to just listening to the same band/singer again and again...

good music, again, is subjective to individuals. and i'll let u ponder abt that. but most pple dont know that good music are not just what we hear in the radio, what we see on TV, or what we read on reviews in the papers but its the unseen and unheard of that also make good music. many of us fail to listen to this kinda music and just go with the flow of the mainstream music. yes, im talking abt the underground music industry. individuals who dont want to surface and enjoy making music for the public to hear and at free of cost. although, resurfacing can reach further more listeners.



Cut the crap. bla bla bla. i do hope u get what i mean. cheers.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Samsons ada album baru!



album barunya akan keluar 25hb ini.... Jodolnya Penantian Hidup

Enjoy single terbarunya Kisah Tak Sempurna

aku memang tak berhati besar
untuk memahami
artimu disana
aku memang tak berlapang dada
untuk menyadari
kau bukan milikku lagi

Reff:
dengar dengarkan aku
aku akan bertahan
sampai kapanpun
sampai kapanpun

maafkan aku
yang tak sempurna tuk dirimu
usailah sudah
kisah yang tak sempurna untuk kita kenang ...

andai aku dapat merelakan
setiap kepingan kugiran kenangan indah
andai aku sanggup menjalani setiap detik
dan waktu mendatang namun

dengar 3x
kisah yang tak sempurna untuk kita
kenang…


Wednesday, May 9, 2007

2nd day of relief?

mana ada. u know my next class should be this saturday period 1-2. but my HOD called me to come, untuk apa nah? for relief!! yes relief. mind you, most teachers have a different understanding of that word, and relief, by their definition means that ure 'free' with no subject to teach, so we give u class to relief, whose teacher is on sick leave.

came to school at 9 (tiwas, akhir kna tpun). and after sigining in, bumped into the principal. terkajut ya i was there. and i told her that, i was called to 'relief' a class padahal i was supposed to be in school dis Saturday. skali, d aga nya timetabling section, she explained to the teacher inside, chegu relief ane dtg untuk mengajar saja. bukannya merelif class. kalau nada class dorang ane nda payah dtg.

man. i couldve a longer sleep if not for the call.

dorang ane macam nada communication bah. the principal knows, but the other teachers dont. dat includes my HOD. balik2 udah ku explain, i only come to teach. im only paid to teach. if theres no class, i dont have to come. i guess dats simple enough to understand, kan?

but not for the other teachers. what they have in mind abt 'relief' is just dat. tane merelief class saja. merelif class yg nda berchegu. awu atu sanang plg banar tu. i would like to do just dat and get paid $50 per day. tapi, i doubt the ministry would pay me. they know if i dont have any lesson. why should i be paid?

another thing, i think, most teachers always thought of me ( relief teacher ane) as guru bergaji hari. they think we are like them. padahal tane earn half of what they earn jua saja (or less). and we dont enjoy any benefits whatsoever like allowances, transport etc, except for not coming when theres no lesson. are we asking too much?

back to where the principal brought me to the timetabling, i was actually given a new timetable by Ck S, for teaching commerce form 1, (happy ku sudah), but not long! sigh. well, i went to see my HOD, and told him, skali back to timetabling, Ck X ane gtau nda tya ku dapat ngajar dat commerce form 1! at the moment still stick to commerce form 2 nya till the end of the month. damn it!!!!! again, another miscommunication kan? F**k eh!

oh well, slowly killing me.....i guess i'll just have to tackle commerce form 2 ane.....despite my weaknesses in bookkeeping/accountg.......tawakkal saja and keep on reading and hopefully understand at the same time....

its a tough job this one......i wonder how far till i break.....

or will i break and get up again?

had to relief two classes just now, 2G and 2A. surprisingly, its easier to control the G class than the A. sigh. A class made me nuts and go crazy. please be patient....

too tired already....

Salam~











Monday, May 7, 2007

Feeling relieved for the first day?

I wished so. Hahah. But no....

Couldn't even get a proper sleep from the nervousness of the night....my mind's still alive and ticking and my eyes were like half-opened.... waking up, i feel like i hadn't sleep at all!! how worst was that to start a day!

The School: (SM Masin/Salty hahah)
Colour: Orangy building (as i remember...errr....)
Space: Ample space! when i come around 715, there was no jam ane wah.. and parking was alot too. Football field, as wide as the eyes can see.....

Stepping my first foot to the establishment, front reception, there was no one. (yes they have a reception counter!) nicely air conditioned. . . .

Reporting to the principal, but she wasnt in. so i was tossed around for a while, till i was shown to a teacher and told her that im reporting for 'relief' post. ..... she brought me down to staffroom 2 where there were still many empty cubicles...(cubicles yo...)

Expectg me to sit and wait for the moment, so stay seated i was... my minds still lingering for an answer to the question of my nervousness...as i was told before that, they are going to give me Commerce Form 2......i flipped through the syllabus pages.....gulp!!!!! my worst nightmare : bookeeping aka accounting! oh no~!!! :(

ok, ok, i stayed calm.... busy messaging sally (who's happily asleep :) and amirul (in sy.abu:) telling them how an intro i was shown by the school. (that's the problem when ure alone).......and i even texted Wan (a friend of mine, teachg englsih there) ...turned out that he was in the library... so i went up to the library....small.....and collection of books pun,,hmmm..tak gune cakap lah...i can't even find sources for my subject area (commerce)...

as the time flies by, like in a flat where i was confined to just 4 polygonal spaces (the cubicle) except for a hollow back where passer-bys can see me, many spotted me lah jua.....'eh, teacher baru kah?'...Nada eh, relief saja chegu...''aaah, bukan guru baru ah?''....Awu~.......so wherever i go and a teacher spotted me, yg ringan mulut and curious atu pun bertanya lah d same question, over and over again....they emphatised us for not getting posted yet, despite the need for more teachers. or should i say, the lack of teachers? funny. how i wish i dont have to answer and they instead tell me the answer why we're not taken yet! in general, those teachers who greeted me and come up with all those fancy repeated questions, are friendly...and that made me feel welcome....chewah~

right, i was then introduced to my HOD , Mr.Hoh...he's under control of giving me the class it seems, apart from the timetabling section, and i was given form 2 commerce. little bit unorganised and panic and sweaty, hehe, he searched through the syllabus for form 2.... payah ya mencari......but in the end he found it, fuuh, made me feel nervous too lah.....skali, he gave me his copy and i looked at it....errrkkk and there i saw it..'bookkeeping' :S....

He kept on mentioning a TP teacher by the name of Nurol....and that rings a bell....its a friend of mine, junior.....and she's the one who's been teaching the Form 2 class, making the scheme of work and going to set the exam paper as well....

Since my class was the last 2 periods, the HOD and his friend brought me to the canteen...kira ia blanja lah...thankfully...the food was alright...(nda plg nyaman tu, hehe)

back to the staffroom,feeling nervous, i kept on reading on bookeeping, just the intro, and i had the grasp of it. i thought it might be easy lah......txted nurol to come asap...yes she was coming despite TP ended last saturday. she voluntarily wanted to continue, but with my prsence, dat day was the last for her. while anxiously waiting for her to reply, and the period's already comng, i walked to the class, anxiously...and there she was already...lerrr!

talked to her that im going to take over her class, but i'll let her continue and just observed her....as the first period approaching to end... there's an announcement from the school's speaker...... know what? my name was called! gila jua tu! Cikgu Eewan diminta ke Form 1D untuk merelif kelas......

see dat? suka2 hati skulah ah menyuruh 'relief'...

class ended, and i talked over to Nurol and discussed abt what had she done for 2A...listening to her explaining to accounting stuffs made me feel not confident to teach and take over the class. sigh. seriously, accounting is so not me. i have very low-self esteem abt accounting and although relearning it on my own is a possibility, but how can i learn and teach at the same time? aren't a teacher supposed to be a master in what they teach? i believe, at this stage, at this moment in time, we are not learning new stuffs, but rather learning to teach what we already know. now dont get me wrong, dont put this out of context. alright. hehe.

before i went home, time's approaching 1400, i went to see the principal. expressing to her that i am not confident to teach commerce form 2. i told her everything lah. being honest that i truly can't. even told her that, if the school doesnt need me, its fine for me. i dont mind. but as she said, we do need u, but in a different field lah tu. different subject.

upon releasing all those grudges, i was really hoping that my subject would be changed. im making this sounded like im 'posted' already. padahal baru jua relief. its just simple. why do i have to teach something that i dont know abt and not confident about. im only a relief teacher. and there are more than 20 students that will suffer as a result. right? so u decide and think abt dat. gimme ur comments. . .


Sunday, May 6, 2007

Feeling nervous :S

Salam

m feeling kinda nervous for tomorrow...time's 2241 writing this post, and its just a while ago that i paid a visit to the school where i'll be reporting tomorrow. Went there with my parents, and we got lost lah a bit...its quite a distance from home compared to where i was posted during TP.

Mom said to me: 'segalas jua minyak ne ah' hehe...i thought so... hmmm..

The school was nice. modern and clean from the outside. cant wait how it'll look like in the morning with all the jam and all the creatures that will be buzzing through the building.

Another story is my pessimistic view about 'what ifs' questions. U know when ure feeling nervous, negativity sometimes tend to occupy urself and make u feel like ure useless and wanna give up. thats how i feel right nw. and im relating it to tomorrow's event btw. i think i will be alone there. being a 'relief' species, other species would probably be treating me like an alien. got it? haHah. heck.

i wished there'd be other pple of my species being sent to the same school tmw.... reminded me of TP, where all same-headed individuals are posted in a school. But for tomorrow, i will be one-man standing.

Just wish me luck. Pray that everything will be ok tmw. alright :D

breathe in breathe out....trying be to be optimist now....

im guessing, all these are the effect of not being in school for quite sometime. one year. to be exact.right?. we are depleting our minds and what we have learned in university. buntu wah. hahah. well blame me for not havg tuition and all dat. but who wouldve thought that it would take this excruciatingly long?

time will tell. indeed. sigh.

Aku. D tipun MOE. Surat.

Salam.

M gonna write abt the relief post. Just things that happened within today though and the next days where i'll be posted. period.

At around 12 30, while i was driving, phone ringing (imagine...) haHah...

Driving a manual car, i had to slow down and turn the radio volume down:

Woman: Hello Awang. Eewan?

Aku: ah, yes

Woman: Kita d minta mengambil surat lantikan ah. d MOe, ong sum ping...

Aku: aah, ok

Woman: Hari ane jua ah. sebabnya awang diminta ke sekolah 7hb, hari 1

Aku: aah, ok... ( dlm hati: oh God......so soon man!!...i just wished it'd be for the actual postg.sigh)


Hahah.......

So to cut the story short, i went to MOE, parked my car at one of the parking where it says 'parking khas'... huhu...

Below is a conversation between me and sally: (edited plg ne sikit heHeh..)

''MOE? aah tadi aku ambil surat ada 2 guys, ku tanya kan lah (sorang plg ganya melayan tu), nygku kan ambil surat relief...skali macam bangang yaa...skali d carikannnya arah meja kerani ane (coz those women nada), and flipped thru envelopes and searched for my name skali aku atu kan jalan tah ku ne, suruhnya buka lu wah surat ah mbaca tah ku.....reading ...bth tu ah, alum g nama ku cek bnr2 tu, skali since there were 2 papers, satu d luar envelope, satu d dalam, ku baca yg luar dulu, then ku buka g yg dalam, panya sama.....and panya copy tah tu,,,skali d explain nya tah laki2 ah, satu ane ko bagi arah principal, satu utk kau....''



So i will report to the school where im supposed to relief this monday before 730.

Glad to be back to school. And salah2 at the same time. After 1 year of resting from teaching
(heh!), with a rotten mind on the methods of teaching etc, monday will come to put me into test whether my mind can still practise those skills......

its life again(temporary?): waking up early, a new school, and new environment. period.

Cheers~



Thursday, May 3, 2007

And the rating is.....


Show started 1630 hours. And we arrived before that time, like 1625, and the movie was already playing! What the ooooh was that?? baru lagi tu...selalunya wayang ane akhir start, coz they have those sneak previews of upcoming movies and stuffs....

Anyways, seat was comfy (Seri Qlap Mall) and since left right front back were occupied, i was thinking it is a full house. right i was. hehe. the crowd was cOOl, not so noisy. and what particularly caught my ears was a kid who's always sighing giving his respond abt a particular scene. pretty funy lah at times. Hahah, berakal bunyinya...

Right, to the rating.......i would give a 4.5/5.... and sally rated it a ''10/10!wuhuu!''

M nt good in evaluating movies actually, but spidey3 has a good storyline. ada drama. action, suspense, romance and comedy was nicely put. graphic wise nda pyh cakap lah, its great! as u can see in the above pic.

I dont think we'll be expecting another sequal to this movie ah? Coz most series, as i was told, has only until 3 episodes. No more peter parker then.....

Nuff said, go and watch the movie and tell me what u think, huhu!






Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Lelebah 3


|Salam|

Aku dan Sally akan menonton wayang tersebut di atas pada esok petang.

Tak sabar rasanya hendak tengok premier nya.....

Rating untuk wayang ini akan di beritahu kemudian.

Huhuhu....

Macam mana bunyinya aku ah...Wakakaka...Melayu Baku.

I cant wait. Oops.